20 Sept

This morning mom phoned and was a bit despondent - the infection in the lungs is still evident so they cant take him off the respirator yet and he's still fully sedated although opens his eyes from time to time - I'm just so grateful I saw him compos mentis for a few seconds so know that he's still inside there somewhere - amazing what the soul is or the individual - where does it hide or go to when unconscious or is it just a mass of cells that somehow function together and create this personality when awake - as some people believe - Colin used to be very interested in astral projection - hope he's making full use of the opportunity now, although I dont think so because if it's possible I think one needs to be able to focus ones concentration and I dont think the drugs allow him to do that - I think he's just adrift in this interminable sea somewhere with who knows what sounds, colours and sensations - just hope the visions are benign.

anyway mom said she would be seeing a man about a shaking matress - apparently Aubrey Klinkradt had one after his horror encounter with flesh eating bugs kept him on his back for I think 8 months - well lo and behold, this afternoon the matress was installed at the hospital - apparently it shakes electronically and prevents bedsores - doctors and everyone fully agrees that it is a fantastic aid but the hospitals dont supply them because of the cost factor.

Looking forward to going down on Saturday and seeing for myself what progress after a week. I'm based in East London next week and then finish my current contract and will be more flexible time wise and able to go down to PE if necessary during the week, possibly to relieve the old lady a bit. Keep up the positive energy, prayers and good wishes!